New date!

Last week I got given my new date! I was so exhausted that day, I was a bit concerned that I wouldn't even remember the phone call later. All this stress truly takes its toll on the body. I ended up having a really early night and sleeping pretty solidly (was starting to get a migraine from the exhaustion too, so I really needed that sleep). Anyway, my surgery will now be next week so there isn't toooooo long left to wait. It does feel like it drags on a bit at times though.

While I was in limbo, the hospital said to go back on normal (but healthy) food rather than the optifast pre-op diet. I think that was mostly because they felt bad for me having to do the pre-op for so long. Anyway, I mostly ate chicken based meals but still had my optifast shakes for breakfast. I found that even this was stressful though, was I eating too much? Was it too high in fat/carbs? Will my liver stay small? Today i'm back on optifast properly though due to the upcoming surgery so in theory everything will be fine. I didn't gain any weight while on normal food, but I didn't lose any either.

I don't feel as though my surgical journey has been a typical one. I know no two are ever the same, but how many other people get postponed twice? (hardly any, if not none - there is a one bump policy from what I can gather!) I know in the long run this will barely even be a blip on the radar but right now it's everything. It's almost always on my mind (i'm getting into makeup at the moment so that's a nice distraction) and everything that happens now gets analysed (my husband sneezed! Is he sick? Will I get sick? Will it postpone surgery again???). It's no wonder I'm so tired!

The plan is to try make notes while i'm in hospital to form some kind of jumbled blog post with afterwards but from what I can gather I'll be pretty tired so i'm not making any promises with that one.